while you were gone

day thirteen

2005-12-09T10:42:00.000+08:00

two more bloody days!!!!!!

i woke up this morning thinking how wonderful it would be if i had you right next to me.
then i started thinking. and thinking and dreaming of stuff
hahah. it's quite dumb, really. and i'm not going to tell you!
HAH. d: we'll see how unalcoholic i am when the time comes. -grinn
hahah. ohya. i just realised i still have baileys so we can have that too (:
OOOOH baby i really cant wait for you to get back!!
ahhhhh. :D
there's so many things for us to do.
gotta make up for the time lost, mann (;
hahah. movies, dvds, shopping, and basically just lazing and buming our lives away :D
how cool is that! hahaha.
you'll be getting on the plane back in about twelve hours.
aren't you excited! :)))
i've been excited since last night, as you might have realised
hahahah. oh damn
im making myself really excited again. hahha .WHOOPS
i shall stop it now. there's no one at home but me ):

strawberry kisses

day twelve

2005-12-08T16:11:00.000+08:00

3 more days!

baby i absolutely cant wait for you to come back home
it's just such an exciting prospect. REALLY!
it's been so long since i last saw you..
so long since i last held you
so long since i last touched you..
oh baby, i really miss you so much

i cant wait till you're home, baby.
till you're right next to me
i'll be the happiest girl alive then
cos i'll have all i ever need to survive
all i ever want in my life : D

i dont think i'll be able to sleep saturday night
too eagerly anticipating your return
too excited to get to see you again,
and hug you so tight. :D
it's exciting, baby. it really is
i really cant wait for you to come back.

xoxo

day eleven

2005-12-07T18:25:00.000+08:00

4 more days :DD

i was walking home today from being out with my best cheerleader friends,
then it suddenly poped into my mind that my baby was coming back in FOUR days.
do you have any idea how exciting that is? -BIG GRINN
i think i started smiling silly-ly to myself and people thought i was mad
see. i really do miss you alot, baby.
i mean, DUHH
i cant stop thinking of you, laa.
and this month is out sixth. see (:
cos my friend asked me today how long we were together.
then i was like, oh this month six.
then she was like WOW that's long :D
haha. i felt so proud of us l:
hahaha. silly, right? -blushes
your girlfriend's silly.

day ten

2005-12-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

the past few days have not been good, baby ):
they were so hard..
i know you're having a way harder time over there
so i really shouldnt be complaining so much.
im sorry..
just that i miss you tonnes, you know
so much so much,
and i really cant wait for you to come back
when i saw david at the airport,
i was so jealous. hah.
silly, right. dumb dumb. im sorry.
im not making sense.
i miss you too much and my thumb hurts ):

day seven

2005-12-03T11:36:00.000+08:00

portia - gift : D

haha. sorry baby.
dont know what's gotten over me.
but AH WELL.
must be cos i miss you too much.. -shrugs
baby please dont think too much about it..
if you just leave it alone,
time will pass faster. really it will!
i promise i'll be there for you when you come back, k?
i will. i promise i will

i'll be flying in about nine hours
then i'll be cut off from you for a few days
im so sorry, baby
im not sure whether i'll still be able to update this,
but i'll still be working on something else for you (:
just.. take it easy.
one day at a time, yeh?
then you'll be coming back soon!
see. seven days already. halfway through! : D

i love you, baby

random

2005-12-02T22:38:00.000+08:00

if i have a daughter, i'm going to name her porsche
( it's pronunced POR-SHER i cant spell it ): )
if i have a son, i'm going to name him thadius
:D i dont know why im telling you
i just am. HAHA

day six

2005-12-02T19:25:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU BABY!
oh god.
i want so much to hug you so tight and never let go.
to bite you.
to kiss you.
to hold you..

we watched love actually today and it was such a bad choice.
i wished so much that you were there, babe.
i wish i had you next to me now.. )):

day five and a half

2005-12-01T15:38:00.000+08:00

you're always on my mind
from the time i wake up
till i close my eyes
you're everywhere i go
you're all i know

though you're so far away
it just keeps getting stronger everyday
even now you're gone
i'm still holding on

watched the videos that you filmed before you went
and the tears just welled up again..
willed them tears not to fall. and they didnt (:
but that doesnt mean i miss you any less
cos i fucking miss you even more. more than ever
being without you sucks. i swear ...

it's breaking my heart

day five

2005-12-01T11:34:00.000+08:00

i cried myself to sleep cos i missed you so much..
hearing your voice made me so happy
but it triggered the tears too
i thought i would be okay
i thought i would be able to get through this
but i guess i thought wrong
it's much harder than i expected it to be..
i miss you so much. so fucking much
): i want so much to be with you
i wish so much you were here with me
so much..
so fucking much...

diamond tears

day four

2005-11-30T13:28:00.000+08:00

BABYEEEEEEEEE
thank you so much for calling me yesterday : D
you really put a smile on my face,
cos i was really really missing you so damn fucking much, you know.
)): especially after prime and all ( which by the way is a sucky show )
but it was all so sweet the way the guy was to the girl and all
and i couldnt help but think of you.. )):
but the call and all those messages made it all better.
thank you so much, baby.

so for all that, i'll leave you with some photos first.
come back and see the rest of them, kay?
so you'd better come back soon. MWAAA

day three

2005-11-29T09:08:00.000+08:00

i miss you like crazy
even more than words can say
i miss you like crazy
every minute and every day

and now that you're literally halfway around the world,
it makes it all that worse ):
what makes it all better are your suprise calls and messages
(: they really make all that difference and it somehow just
lifts my spirits up just hearing your voice / hearing from you.
i really feel like the luckiest girl alive :D

and im glad you've finally arrived safely in trinidad, baby.
it's been a LOOOONG trip. -grinn
now you go enjoy yourself and have a great time

i really wish you were here with me to prepare for grad later
but i know it's way beyond our means.
it's not your fault or anything.
we just cant help it.. ):

blessed and smiling,
with loads of love for you

day two

2005-11-28T09:27:00.000+08:00

BABY! :DDDDDDDDDDDD
you put a smile on my face and totally made my day
first was your message ( im glad i woke up to check it )
then you called. AHHHH : DDDDD
i was so happy, please.
oh so pleasantly suprised :DD
hahah. see laa. i abit high now. all because of YOU.
hahahah. dont be too bored at the airport, yeh?
i'll be thinking of you :D more posts later.

all the love in the world

day one

2005-11-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

it's been about eight hours since i last spoken to you
and it's really killing me so badly )):
so so badly, baby. oh so fucking badly
and people keep reminding me you're gone and stuff
it's totally not making it easier for me.. ):

i suppose you're still on the plane now?
reading morrie and all, ya? haha
or probably sleeping. -grinn haha
oh baby dear. i want you! i want you i want you
-SULKK

i really hope you'll have fun there, darling
all the fun in the world, okay?
it'll be the best fun in the world (:
i know you'll have fun laa. all the exciting things and people all
HAHA. yupp. it'll be all good
and i'll take care of myself so you wont have to worry!

ahh sucks. no talking to you tonight.. ):
i miss you so much, baby dear.
hope things are much better where you are

loads of love and sugar kisses