day thirteen

two more bloody days!!!!!!

i woke up this morning thinking how wonderful it would be if i had you right next to me.
then i started thinking. and thinking and dreaming of stuff
hahah. it's quite dumb, really. and i'm not going to tell you!
HAH. d: we'll see how unalcoholic i am when the time comes. -grinn
hahah. ohya. i just realised i still have baileys so we can have that too (:
OOOOH baby i really cant wait for you to get back!!
ahhhhh. :D
there's so many things for us to do.
gotta make up for the time lost, mann (;
hahah. movies, dvds, shopping, and basically just lazing and buming our lives away :D
how cool is that! hahaha.
you'll be getting on the plane back in about twelve hours.
aren't you excited! :)))
i've been excited since last night, as you might have realised
hahahah. oh damn
im making myself really excited again. hahha .WHOOPS
i shall stop it now. there's no one at home but me ):

strawberry kisses

day twelve

3 more days!

baby i absolutely cant wait for you to come back home
it's just such an exciting prospect. REALLY!
it's been so long since i last saw you..
so long since i last held you
so long since i last touched you..
oh baby, i really miss you so much

i cant wait till you're home, baby.
till you're right next to me
i'll be the happiest girl alive then
cos i'll have all i ever need to survive
all i ever want in my life : D

i dont think i'll be able to sleep saturday night
too eagerly anticipating your return
too excited to get to see you again,
and hug you so tight. :D
it's exciting, baby. it really is
i really cant wait for you to come back.

xoxo

day eleven

4 more days :DD

i was walking home today from being out with my best cheerleader friends,
then it suddenly poped into my mind that my baby was coming back in FOUR days.
do you have any idea how exciting that is? -BIG GRINN
i think i started smiling silly-ly to myself and people thought i was mad
see. i really do miss you alot, baby.
i mean, DUHH
i cant stop thinking of you, laa.
and this month is out sixth. see (:
cos my friend asked me today how long we were together.
then i was like, oh this month six.
then she was like WOW that's long :D
haha. i felt so proud of us l:
hahaha. silly, right? -blushes
your girlfriend's silly.

day ten

the past few days have not been good, baby ):
they were so hard..
i know you're having a way harder time over there
so i really shouldnt be complaining so much.
im sorry..
just that i miss you tonnes, you know
so much so much,
and i really cant wait for you to come back
when i saw david at the airport,
i was so jealous. hah.
silly, right. dumb dumb. im sorry.
im not making sense.
i miss you too much and my thumb hurts ):

day seven

portia - gift : D

haha. sorry baby.
dont know what's gotten over me.
but AH WELL.
must be cos i miss you too much.. -shrugs
baby please dont think too much about it..
if you just leave it alone,
time will pass faster. really it will!
i promise i'll be there for you when you come back, k?
i will. i promise i will

i'll be flying in about nine hours
then i'll be cut off from you for a few days
im so sorry, baby
im not sure whether i'll still be able to update this,
but i'll still be working on something else for you (:
just.. take it easy.
one day at a time, yeh?
then you'll be coming back soon!
see. seven days already. halfway through! : D

i love you, baby

random

if i have a daughter, i'm going to name her porsche
( it's pronunced POR-SHER i cant spell it ): )
if i have a son, i'm going to name him thadius
:D i dont know why im telling you
i just am. HAHA

day six

I MISS YOU BABY!
oh god.
i want so much to hug you so tight and never let go.
to bite you.
to kiss you.
to hold you..

we watched love actually today and it was such a bad choice.
i wished so much that you were there, babe.
i wish i had you next to me now.. )):

day five and a half

you're always on my mind
from the time i wake up
till i close my eyes
you're everywhere i go
you're all i know

though you're so far away
it just keeps getting stronger everyday
even now you're gone
i'm still holding on

watched the videos that you filmed before you went
and the tears just welled up again..
willed them tears not to fall. and they didnt (:
but that doesnt mean i miss you any less
cos i fucking miss you even more. more than ever
being without you sucks. i swear ...

it's breaking my heart

day five

i cried myself to sleep cos i missed you so much..
hearing your voice made me so happy
but it triggered the tears too
i thought i would be okay
i thought i would be able to get through this
but i guess i thought wrong
it's much harder than i expected it to be..
i miss you so much. so fucking much
): i want so much to be with you
i wish so much you were here with me
so much..
so fucking much...

diamond tears